I would like to buy $3.00 worth of God. Not enough to explode my soul or disturb my sleep, but just enough to equal a cup of warm milk or a snooze in the sunshine. I want ecstasy, not transformation. I want the warmth of the womb, not a new birth. I want a pound of the eternal life in a paper sack, please. I would like to buy $3.00 worth of God.
A lot of us struggle with wanting a relationship with God but are not willing to fully commit to it. Fear of being uncomfortable and changing my life is a tremendous obstacle in my faith. I want enough of God to feel comfortable and to feel the excitement that comes from knowing Him but not the hardship of changing my life after knowing Him. I want to experience His wonders and the easy side of knowing Him but not live a life for Him because that would mean completely transforming the way I live.
I would love to wake up every morning and have quiet time with God and read the bible, but I don’t. It’s so much easier to catch those couple extra minutes, or in my case hours, of sleep than getting up and spending time with Him. I’ll tell myself that I’ll just do it later but I always find an excuse not to do it.
“I know that nothing good lives in me, that is, my sinful nature. For I have the desire to do what is good, but I cannot carry it out. For what I do is not the good I want to do; no, the evil I do not want to do— this I keep doing. Now if I do what I do not want to do, it is no longer I who do it, but it is sin living in me that does it.” (Romans 7:18-20)
Our nature is to sin. We live in a sinful world with temptation around every corner, and we find ourselves falling into that sin every day, even though it’s not what we want to do. We’ll pray and go to church to stay good with God and try and start fresh, but we go back to living a life in sin right after. We want to grow closer to Him, but we don’t do anything about it. We want $3.00 worth of God because that’s all we’re willing to give. But we have all of God. He’s constant in our lives and loves us so much that he gave his Son for us. He gave everything he had so that we could one day enter a perfect world and be with Him. So why is it so hard for us to transform our lives for Him?
I finally realized that I’m ready for a deeper and more meaningful relationship with God, and I’m working towards that. It’s a struggle everyday, but my reward is eternal life with an all-knowing God who loves me more than I’ll ever understand. I suck at it so far, but some tips I find helpful are:
1. Quiet Times
And I don’t mean just skimming through the bible and praying a prayer because you feel obligated to. Actually take the time to reflect on the words you're reading, and talk to God every day!! This definitely isn't an easy thing to keep up with. In the back of my mind I know I should do it but I'll just push it off over & over and then I'll end up not doing it at all. What I found is the most effective is to just knock it out as soon as you wake up. I love spending time with Him in the morning. It's a encouraging way to start off the day.
2. Accountability Partners
Find someone who you feel comfortable with and just talk everything out!! Call them up if you have questions about something you read or just want to talk about your faith. It helps to have someone supporting you, and it’ll allow you guys to grow in your relationship with each other too!! We all have who we think are our best friends but are you really as close as you think you are? How deep is your relationship with each other? This is something I struggle with a lot because I'm one of those people who can be friends with anyone but not develop those friendships into deeper ones. I'm still working on this. Don't expect your relationships to get deep right away. It takes time!!
3. Consistency & Commitment
If you miss a day it's OK!! If I miss a day then I feel like I have to wait until the next week to start over, but that’s not the solution. Just pick up where you left off the next day!!
4. Don’t be Discouraged
I get discouraged all the time… your road to growing in your relationship with God isn’t going to be easy or perfect. There are going to be a bunch of times when you feel like you're not going anywhere, but don't let it get you down. You got this!! You might not be able to see it but somebody does!
Do you just want a life $3.00 worth of God or a life filled with all He’s worth?